today my thoughts went to your funeral i remembered how many people were there looking at me as i read my last words to you. i could hardly stand up, but i found the strenght because you gave it to me. iwhen we left your house for the last time i walked in front of your herse with your kids either side of me and i was so very proud to be your sister. i herd sobs coming from mostly elain!! and finlae really kicked off after. she misses you so much, she talks about you all the time and is gona miss you even more growing up. i go see clare alot she makes me smile and she sees you in me and it reasures me that your my big sister always im going to see aaron this saturday again youd be so proud of him hes so tall and hes got your eyes. i love you emmaxxxx