when i put tommy to bed last night he was fine. after around ten mins he called me and was crying. i asked wats up n he told me i miss auntie leisa. it hurt so bad but i said why babe whats up. he said i want her back mummy to come round, i said well son she cant cause shes in heaven but if you ever need to see her you look into your brain and she will always be there like a bright happy picture. he stopped crying and said mummy your right i CAN see her now in my brain. bless him he slept with her picture in his hand all night and bless her she loved my boy so much... he just had his sisters birthdays and like last year he threw birthday cake at the ceiling in the living room it went every where but how can i tell him off when hes just throwing it to his auntie he uses her as an excuse these days hel be naughty and say but leisa said i could!!!! and whens he told off he says but i miss auntie leisa so i dont tell him off trust sis its not working so much these days it dont work for me no more!!! how am i supposed to deal with him without you i was always your back up with chelsie n aaron and i took them away if they were pissing you off or out for the day if u needed me too i loved helping you but i need you too and id never trust anyone with else my babies