I WAS BORN ON JAN 31ST 1978, my big sister and brother idolised me I gave them loads of reasons two give them the hump but they always forgave me and id make fish finger sarnies for them and there mates. These mates included coz aka wayne, who egged them on by telling me my sarnies were great so id make them all one. Then there was clair Francis, who I once found a full packet of fags for and thought i was the greatest.. Leisa And Jimi were only given permision to go night fishing if they took me so i kind of became a nessecity to my big bro n sisters freedom. If they ever went out without me id create so much they had to come back for me. My brother and sister where named Ralphie by there freinds and i always remember stateing to them MY NAME IS NOT RALPHIE ITS EMMA a statement I defended until she died now im proud to be a RALPHIE it means i was part of it all. the younger years so so care free. a life of playing runouts silly nicknames (you no who you are!) and makeing sure youd tryed Thunderbirds before you were 12. I remember when I was about 4 and Jimi and leisa drew in my mums bible. she sat us down on a toy box n said 2 whoever says it was them and tells the truth will get a chocolate bar. she new it was jimi n leisa cause i couldnt write my own name let alone theres but when she was out o the room jimi n leisa told me to say it was me so id get some chocolate and cause i was young. i told my mum what they told me to to say and they got the chocolate bar .whilst i sat there without chocolate but proud id saved my big bro n sis a hard time. even though the bible clearly had "leisa n jimi were ere" on it and i couldnt even write my initials!!but i was just proud they were let off. in my sisters diarys after her passing she has written "i dont remember much about Emma only that she had the was so pretty " She then says "i dont remember her getting hit much" Bless her, she forgave me for everything and I did need her alot. Whatever i needed she helped me all the way like sisters do. She was 16/17 and had just had Chelsie so she had her first home and she opened her doors to me over and over again. Her love never falterd and she was always there for me. I would give everything to have her back except her suffering more, each day i go bye in pain, i no shes had none.